Emotion Burst
thus the waves of emotional memory come...
they're pounding.. ripping.. crushing.. twisting.. poisoning.. burning.. devastating me from the inside..
i will always rise and hold my chin up high..
thus they will come again...
i will always put the smiling lines on my face and walk through..
and again.. they will come...
why is it so easy for you to say such wise words..
"turn it to be your motivation! you have to survive! you have mouths to feed! you have to keep alive! you should keep praying! you shan't forget what everyone has given to you!"
why can you say that while you haven't even feel what i felt and you haven't even see what i saw and you haven't even hear what i heard??
tried hard to understand and act as i should as per your request..
tried hard to surpressing and lying myself that i am okay..
tried hard to be NORMAL on your way..
well i don't know what i do really want since i've always lost everything what i want to keep..
so i think it shouldn't be any difference to you whether i'm here, there, or nowhere
and now they're about to come again..
pounding.. ripping.. crushing.. twisting.. poisoning.. burning.. devastating..
astaghfirullah...